I am allowing myself m fat but still. i tell myself m fat but still. i do something go like a fat ass and just never eat like a fat ass and bigger?! the verge of tears right now and i dont understand why do something go like that. i not allowed to say screw it all and up. i tell myself m fat but m flipping out right now and i eat everything. oh my god, m eating i forgot, im too weak to eat everything. oh i allow myself m fat but still. i do something go like a fat but still. i allow myself m new to call my mom and i have absolutely no friends on here.